I can accomplish anything...as long as I have the right pair of shoes.

Words to live by.

it's nice to realize who is always going to be there for me, and who isn't worth my time. i feel like some of my time has been wasted on people who were only using me or betraying me in some way. i enjoy all of my friends that have been there for me during the summer thus far. i love you all. having said that, i miss my friends from school, and i can't wait to be reunited. last time i blogged, i said i would be starting my internship. and i started! i've had a good first couple of weeks, though it has opened my eyes. i have realized that i do not want a career that requires me to be on a computer all day in a cubicle. don't get me wrong, i am thankful for my job...but what i'm currently doing for this internship isn't satisfying my hunger to get out there and get my hands dirty. anyways friends, i'm about to go enjoy the summer night!

why do people insist on causing problems?

all im sayinnnn' is:

save the drama for your mama.

so, i've been thinking a lot lately. maybe thats why i haven't posted a blog in so long. i swear, thinking and over analyzing has taken over my life. or should i say WORRYING? there are so many things going on right now, preparing to be on m own, getting things for the apartment, trying to afford/buy a car, i got an internship, and recently decided to let go of something i should have let go so long ago.

in the midst of all of this chaos, i feel like i have lost myself. i have sold myself short, and did things i wouldn't normally do. so i woke up this morning, with the oddest feeling. i couldn't explain it if i tried. all i know is i was focused on the negative things in my life. i try and be a positive person, and i let things build up and bother me until i burst. i guess you could call today the "burst day". but then i realized, things are not as negative as i am making them out to be. i'm moving in august, to my very own place. i just got offered an internship with a prestigious financial firm in DC, i know exactly what i want to do and nothing can keep me from that.

Having said that, i also have been having reoccurring feelings for someone who doesn't deserve my time or energy. it has been something in my life for a very long time ( 2 years or so) and i tried to let go too soon, without closure...which led me to my old ways...aka having the same feelings. recently, an incident happened which really opened my eyes. and you know what i realized? you can NOT make someone your priority, when they only make you an option. in this i have realized i deserve so much better, and i will find it. maybe not today and maybe not next month but i will find it. i did not get the closure i desired, but i guess you could say that event gave me the courage to say i'm done with this, and tell myself that its not healthy. i'm glad this happened. i really am. it may be hard, but it is for the better.

anyways, i'm glad i have cleared my thoughts. on a positive note, i think one of my best friends and i are going to Georgia soon for vacation...i am SO excited. i want to live in Georgia...so i know we will have a good time. i love the south. i love everything about it. i recently took a trip to visit a friend who lives in the city, and i just like the country more. i mean, don't get me wrong, having everything be 2 minutes away is convenient. but i realized its more than that. its the 20 minute drive it takes to get where i'm going. the music loud, the windows down, and the country scenery to look at. all of it combined to clear my mind, and be at peace.

thats all for now friends. lots of love,

tangerine love dove.

I had this guy leave me a voicemail at work, so I called him at home, and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies. It's exhausting. -He's Just Not That Into You